30th november 2006.

didn't do much today.
just audition-ed quite a bit. >.<"

my head was spinning earlier.
i didn't want to play at all. x_x
but yah, they were so nice and stuff.
i can't help but to stay on.
so i'm like auditioning for the sake of people.
-nods.

but nevermind.
i think it's worth it. =D
better than auditioning for the sake of auditioning and leveling right?
hahas.

today met .. marie?
yeah, mervin's sister.
damn cute. and damn pro.
lols.


later going out with dad and brothers for dinner.
blah, don't know what to say when i meet him. >.<
ohwells.

anyway.
i have the BEST mummie in the world! =D
won't reveal the reason why.
but yah, know that i do. ^^
confirm better than all of yours! =DP

starting work on monday.
90%.
yepps.
either at tampines or toa payoh.

today cut hair.
i like. =D
quite nice.
and my fringe isn't too short.
so that's like a super bonus. ^^


hahas.
so random.
ohwells. =D
takecares!


i'm sorry mfl. :(

29th november 2006.

my friends are sick. :(
si ning must take cares okay!
all the best for your papers! ^^
jiayoujiayous !
only got wednesday, thursday and friday left! =DD

hiro must take care also!
keep falling sick. >=[

hm. that's about it.
i might be starting work soon,
at my mummie's friend's shop.
yepp. selling clothes. =/
hahahas. ohwells.

takecares. =D

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wm - angryangryangry. Ok. one. last. email. >.< 4 weeks late! says:
yes. you are still miss evercute

hahahas!

--- -------

后来 我总算学会了如何去爱
可惜你早已远去 消失在人海
后来 终于在眼泪中明白
有些人 一旦错过就不在

may that day never befall me.

28th november 2006.

oops. blogging at such unearthly hour again.
hahas. cause i reached home not long ago.
then i'm planning to play audition. xD
haven't played much today. :(

hm.
yesterday i slept at .. 0600.
hahas. then i woke up at 1100.
xD biological alarm clock, can't blame.
the reason for sleeping so late .. hm.
was auditioning!
but that wasn't the main reason.
it was mainly because i met three very nice people. ((:
they're from university. (:
si ning, angeline and mervin. hahas.
they're damn nice, especially si ning. =Dx
do i sound biased? heck.
hahas.

hm. went gym with jack and weiliang.
lols. and i really have no stamina okay!
sucks. :(

went to bugis after that with jack.
got my chocolates! =DD
spent forty bucks. =(
hm. simon came also.
to meet jack for dinner. -nods.

after that met hiro.
didn't do much.
yups. but i was tired. :(

actually, very tired now.
but .. x_x
never audition the whole day.
feels abit wrong.
so yah. go audition abit. =x

anyway tomorrow got to go celebrate my brother's birthday with my family,
and his friend plus grace.
hahas. going jack's place?
willard wanted. hahas.
11 years old only, want jack's place. tskk.
gave him his present also luh.
so i'm like totally broke le lah. :(

ohwellohwells.

takecares people! ((:

ps. anyone got job to intro? xD

she didn't have friends to share special occasions with,
because she hadn't known how to let people into her life,
and keep them there.

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he don't know how she felt when he said those words.
it might sound like she's being very petty and short-tempered.
maybe it is true that she's like that,
but please know.
she's more fragile and vulnerable than he thinks she is.
when he said those words,
it felt like someone was on a personal attack, once again.
like someone was gonna pry open her wounds, once again.
anyone knows how that feels?

before that, she so wanted to blog so desperately on how she really felt.
but whatever the guy said had diminished all those feelings.
they were like, evaporated.
and all that was left are past hurt and pains that she can never forget.

he thinks it is so easy for her to spell out all her emotions.
it's not.
and she's not capable of doing it.
she feels threatened whenever he forces her to say.
she feels like she's pushed to the corner,
opened to vulnerability.
she retaliates, yet he never understands.
he never understood how she has really felt over everything that happened.
those known to him and those unknown.

it's not that she wanna be impatient with him.
it's just that, it's because he's close to her,
that's why everything seems more vulnerable.
he can promise her a million times that he would never try to hurt her.
but to her, it's not like he doesn't ever hurt her.
man ain't perfect, she knows.
she wishes to protect herself.

maybe there's just something wrong with her.
and she doesn't deserve such a good him.
without him, her world would collapse.
but it doesn't matter anymore.
cause she's simply not good enough.

she's not bitter with anyone.
just sour about herself.
sour that she had to turn out this way.
that she didn't turn out better, but bitter.

i tried my best.
i really did.

sighs. i need a break.

26th november 2006.

had service today.
reverend doctor phil pringle.
gawd, one of my favourites. (:
54 in age, yet doesn't even look close to that.
talented; a songwriter, a singer, an author, a painter and ..
can't remember the rest.
but well, he's just good.
not to add, cute also! xD

he said something that made me ponder.
okay, maybe i'm abit slower than all the intellects all there.
but yah, he said
people always blame God when something goes wrong.
but when there is something good, they don't thank God.
they thank and praise themselves.
hm, why don't only the blame goes to God, and not the gratitude?
-ponders.

hm.
will be celebrating my little brother's birthday on tuesday.
going to jack's place to have lunch, i suppose.
hahas. yepps.
can go shopping after that. xD

hahas. alrights.
going to audition le.
takecares!


it was a little sad today.
cause you never saw that i was that upset.
it kept going on in my mind;
why can't you see it?
since my feelings were often unrevealed,
and this is the only few times it is.
so why didn't you see it?
whatever it is, thanks. (:
mfl? hahas.
maybe forever as well.

25th november 2006.

ohmygosh.
i never blog for a few days.
then my comment box become like don't know what.
lols.
later i blacklist grace and pam. xD

hm.
been busy these days.
that's why never blog.
hahas. busy with what?
AUDITION!
xD
hahas.
oops.
but fun okay.
and i made nice friends there. =D
hahas.

yeah. i'm blogging so late
because i've been playing audition.
didn't intend to blog.
but when i saw my comment box,
i felt a need to do so.
lols. so yups.

hm.
later playing for cellgroup.
nothing much.
got to start looking for a job.
got to stop wanting to spend.
got to start on my xmas presents.

takecares!
i love you guys. ((:


just because i know it's right doesn't mean i'll do it.
i'm sorry i've been such a stubborn idiot.
but please forgive me.
i just can't seem to make myself do the things i ought to do.
and do it right.
:(

22nd november 2006.

lols.
yesterday i was talking to my gaymale friend.
then suddenly, he shouted:
MUMMIE! THERE IS A KAKA IN MY ROOM!

we were on conference.
then the other two of us, started laughing like crazy.
omg lah. =X
and not like he's some 12 year old kid.
he's .. more than 21 year old?
lols.

i shall not name him here.
hahas.
but you guys can ask me in private if you want.
xD

that mummie boy.
lols.

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i like my template!
so cute. ^^

21st november 2006.

i'm gonna start preparing xmas pressies!
omg, so excited. =DD

but yah. i cannot spend much on them this year. =(
cause yah. i still owe many people money.
due to my phone luh.
so yah, i'm trying to keep alot of stuff to handmade
instead of pure purchasing.
yups.
and i hope my friends will still like it. -nods.
-prays.

yups.
might be going to tampines mall later.
see how lazy i get.
if i get very lazy, then i'll just forgo the trip and do it another day.
need to get some stuff.

hm. and i need to start working!
i've been having nothing to do and it's killing me!
jobjobjob!


santa santa!
can i wish that i'll be on all my friends' xmas list? xD
thankews! ^^

--- -------

lols.
i shall not name anyone here.
but yah.
show you guys a conversation between two of my friends.

A:last year did i get you anything for xmas? and did you get me anything?
B:no..
A: okay. then can it stay like that for this christmas? then you don't have to buy me anything and i don't have to buy you anything, yay!


rotflol!

20th november 2006.

i just realised i've got a bigg b--t--d in my social circle
by the name of ronald/lance chew jie yong aka 周杰勇.
(you can fill the the blank yourself.)
this will be agreed among my many fellow friends, i am certain.

when you shove the truth in his face,
he gets you to f--- off.
and that is the second time he said to me.
and coincidentally, that is the second time anyone ever said that to me.
so yah, damn you ronald.
quit taking my forgiveness for granted.
quit it.

and please,
if there's ever a day where you wanna talk to me again,
just forget it okay.
don't come and talk to me.
and then if i don't wish to reply,
you say i'm petty.
like what the hell?!
who's been the petty one ever since i've met him?
i really wonder.

only you can offend and play with people,
and not the other way round?
you damn suck.
like, big time.

yahyah.
run away somemore.
yada yada somemore.
go ahead and live in self-denial.
i.don't.give.a.damn.anymore.

sheesh.
been given so many advices to just stop bothering about you.
but yah, you also never appreciate.
so what's the point right?
like you said,
you don't deserve my time, effort and love.
hahahas.
my wonderful time, my persistent effort and my beautiful love.
LOL.


ohwells.
this is as far as i would go for you, as a friend for the last time.
if still, you insist on your stand.
and everybody else is wrong in your eyes.
then i'm really at a loss for words.
and i pity you.
because 世界上最可悲的人是没用知自之明的人。
so please, if this is really the case,
remember to send my condolences to your mum for me.

reason?
you know why. ;)

maybe i should pity myself also.
for wasting fifteen minutes of my life typing this thing for you
which i know might never get into your brain.
and i could have done better things with those time.
sighs. ohwells.

19th november 2006.

i keep telling myself i wanna update.
but i can't seem to think of anything to write about.
x_x blehh.
blogblogblog!

hm. let's see.
had service today.
bible study after that.
hm, nothing in particular happened i suppose.


seems like a lot of people are going through ..
how do i put it?
down periods of their lives?
yeah, whether is it their relationships, personal lives, etc.
feel so .. helpless. >.<


takecares okay?
especially my dar dar. xD
-hugs!

16th november 2006.

i knew i wasn't wrong
when i said that i couldn't afford to tell my family about it.
totally right.

my mum almost flared when i told her my sim card was gone.
"what if he loses the phone as well?!?!"
was one of the things that she said.

damn.
i hate it.
i hate lying to my mum.
shitshitshit.

sighs.
sorry mummie.
i love you. :(

--- -------

i'm in an awful mood.
awful to the extent that i'm venting it out on some people.
sighs. i'm sorry.
this is so not me;
to vent my anger on you when it doesn't even concern you.
i'm sorryy.


thanks hiro.
for accompanying me today to purchase this phone;
for being so ever supportive;
for lending me money even though sometimes you don't have enough for yourself.
the list can go on and on.
but whatever it is,
thanks so much! (:
i think without you, i'll be at loss most of the time.

thanks grace.
for lending me money;
for lending me a listening ear;
for being such a friend.
really. thank you.
iloveyou. (:

thanks p kor.
for being so sweet;
for being willing to pass me a few hundred to pay my debts as my christmas present;
for always wanting to help me;
for all the concern.
it's deeply appreciated.
and i'm glad you are my kor. (:
thanks. (:

thanks clarence.
for lending me money;
for accompanying me to get my phone;
for being so ever patient with me;
for never flaring at me, etc.
a friend in need, is a friend indeed.
i think if that's really true,
you're really a friend in my life. (:

thanks jack.
i know you care, but you have your own limits also.
but that alot mattered alot.
thanks so much,
for being my best friend. (:



i swear.
lynette swear that she will be an angel in all of her friends' lives.
i promise.
cross my heart and hope to die.
i have so many beautiful people and things in my life.
yet i don't appreciate them as much as i should.
but i will, from now.
i will make an effort to.
i promise.
just give me some time, okays?

i love all of you.
(:

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ESFJ-The Provider You scored 81% I to E, 63% N to S, 14% F to T, and 28% J to P!

Providers, a subgroup of the Guardians, take it upon themselves to arrange for the health and welfare of those in their care, as well as being quite sociable. Wherever they go, Providers take up the role of social contributor, happily giving their time and energy to make sure that the needs of others are met, that traditions are supported and developed, and that social functions are a success. Providers are extremely sensitive to the feelings of others, which makes them perhaps the most sympathetic of all the types, but which also leaves them rather self-conscious, that is, highly sensitive to what others think of them. Because of this Providers can be crushed by personal criticism, and will work most effectively when given ample appreciation both for themselves personally and for the service they give to others. This is not to say that Providers are afraid to express their own emotional reactions. They are quick to like and dislike—and don’t mind saying so—tending to put on a pedestal whatever or whoever they admire, and to come down hard on those people and issues they don’t care for. You share your type with 10% of the population. As a romantic partner, you work hard to nuture and protect your relationships. You go to great lengths to maintain harmony and are motivated to resolve conflicts. You have a very clear idea of what is important to you and do best when your partner shares those same values. You want your partner to be loving, commited, and willing to support your frequently overwelming feelings and reactions. You feel most appreciated when your partner is kind, considerate, and helpful, and compliments you often on your hard work in their behalf. Your group summary: Guardians (SJ) Your Type Summary: ESFJ

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 82% on I to E You scored higher than 85% on N to S You scored higher than 12% on F to T You scored higher than 19% on J to P

Link: The LONG Scientific Personality Test written by unpretentious2 on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test

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grace says:
nights dearest sweetest darlingest babyest daughter :D


hahas. so sweet! =D

15th november 2006.

i lost my phone.

this morning was late in meeting grace.
so i rushed here and there.
ran and stuff.
and -poof-.
my phone dropped and it was gone.
realised it the moment i got on the bus.
got off the next stop, and ran all the way backk.
but to no avail.

the phone is still on.
but no one is answering the calls.
they say there's a probability that the phone is still unfound.
but i highly doubt that possibility.
sighs.

but i was consoled!
cause i found a way to settle it.
as long as i have money, this can be settled right?
firstly, i'll have to borrow from someone money.
and grace has kindly agreed. (:
secondly, i'll have to tell xuemin that i'll have to cut down a little of my building fund.
or else i don't know if i can fulfill it ..

the last thing is to let my mother and grandma find out.
Daddie, even if you cannot help me find back my phone.
at least help me hide from my mummie okay?
thank you!

i've got my own plans le.
i hope it doesn't fail.
if not, i really wanna commit suicide. x_x

sighs.
anyway.
thanks hiro, for rushing down to my 'rescue'.
thanks grace, for being so understanding.
thanks jack, for being so concern.
thanks leonard, for helping me keep the secret from mummie and grandma.
thanks to the rest, for your concern and .. listening ear?
yeahh. (:

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J says:
so u going to steal money huh?

x_x
that was my friend's response when i told him i'll not be telling my family about it and i'll be paying for the purchase of my phone with me being unemployed.

what a friend right? -.-

14th november 2006.

i don't know why.
just didn't feel like sleeping.
and i felt an unusual urge to blog.
so here i am,
doing something i shouldn't be doing at this unearthly hour.

hm. yesterday was fine.
went kbox.
and gosh lah!
my singing style really changed so much.
but good lah.
i like the feeling. =D

and this visit to kbox,
the best song i sang was open your eyes by zhang hui mei.
so damn surprising lah.
that song is soo not me.
but heck.
i like the feeling when i sing this song.
^^


原来我在保护自己的当中
伤害了很多人。
still pondering over that.
.. yeah.


alrights.
that's the end.


sing sing sing.
till i die. (:

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i will sleep more from now onwards!
at least 8 hours a day!
then i will have bright and sparkling eyes!
then more cute le. ^^
hahas. xD

job! (:
12th november 2006.

had service with reverend ulf ekman.
went for bible study after that.
foundation truths 1 by pastor zhuang.
janice sent me back on a cab after that.
which is very nice of her. (:
and!
she recommended me a job.
admin work bah.
like clerk like that.
quite cool.
nine to six, from monday to friday.
at robinsons centre?
think so.
$6.50 an hour.
which i personally think it's a good deal.
but this job would only last for one and a half months.
yepp. if i get this job,
i would start work on either 15th/16th this month.
so thanks alot janice!
thanks Daddie! =D


anyway.
did i mention that i'm having a toothache? :(
dentistttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt.

and oh yah.
yesterday went to suntec.
i found reese's ! =DD
yum yum.
hahas. i'm eating it at the expense of my toothache.
cause it's sooo yummy. xD

hm.
that's about it bah.
nothing much.
yepp.
takecares! =D


today i walked past you.
feeling ambivalent, nervous, scared and everything else.
but in future,
i will not feel anything.
simply because you don't deserve it.

11th november 2006.

now i look like some stupid ah lian. :(
-smacks.
like 画龙添足。
x_x
and my teeth aches!
:((

anyway.
thanks to jack for coming down to my place to pass me some stuff.
(:
xiexie! =D


guess i wanna sleep le.
yepp.
but !
i'm quite excited for monday. =D
xD


"i want to see you regret for not holding on to me.
for not cherishing me."
that's so not me.

highlighted hair!
9th november 2006.

i highlighted my hair!
red. O_O
lols.
my brother highlighted golden yellow.
cool huh.
hahas.

new image i suppose.
but not much of a difference bahh.
hahas.
wait for it to grow long.
then it'll be black again.
and when it does,
i doubt i'm planning to do anything to do for some time.
yupps. but it'll take some time bah.
yepp.

7th november 2006.

i'm using yeow sheng's laptop now.
hahas. in school rehearsing for oral presentation.
it's tomorrow!
-scaredscared.

but yah. SHOULD be quite prepared.
hope that the audience don't think it's too boring. :(

anyway.
grace is so sweet.
=DD
hahas. she had an entry specially dedicated to me.
so nice. ^-^

i don't want to be copycat.
so i'm not gonna do the same.
i'll think of something for this very sweet girl in my life.
^^

hahas.


hm.
life's been pretty good these days.
people in my life.
understanding family.
yup. pretty much happy about life.
got people like mummie! =D grace, hiro, jack, tc daddie, weiliang, weiguang, weejie and etc.
life's been good in fact! (:
oh yah, with an understanding cellgroup leader also.
so glad that she understood when i finally told her about that. (:
hahas.

well. maybe abit more financially tight in the days to come.
since i've pledged so much towards building fund.
hope i'll be able to cope. (:

and maybe it ain't that good with some guy ..
____ me.
i don't know what to put there.
pestering doesn't seem to be the right word.
ohwells.
nevermind.
it's my pleasure right?
hahas.

afterall, my wish is to know as many people as i can
in this limited life i have right? (:
hahas.


lastly.
i just wanna tell grace that
that was the sweetest thing that has ever happened to me since don't know when.
hahas,
thanks girl!
i love you too! =DD

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i want to get so many things. :(

many many friendship bands.
those really cute stickers at bugis.
coloured contact lens.
shoes!
my vcd.
books.
more tops.
more bottom.
my -ahem-.

yahh.
so many!

6th november 2006.

i tell you,
blogger sucks. >=[
i haven't been able to post anything for the past few days.
blah.

anywayy.
i completed minesweeper on the 4th! =D
cool right. hahas. =X
like after so long ..
lols.

anyway.
i think i'll still go poly.
yeahh.
ohwells.


so many dreams abandoned ..
because of them.

3rd november 2006.

i think the best i'll get for chinese is a B.
i wrote crap for my essay.
used one hour for essay.
slept on the other half an hour.
used 55 minutes for paper two.
slept on the rest.
paper two was easy though. o.o

anyway.
i got back my results.
B for chinese.
D for economics.
E for maths, chemistry, general paper and geography.
and damn.
i passed all. x_x
shit lah.

it's so &$#()*$@.
how could i possibly have passed all?!?!
..
now i don't know whether to stay or leave.
and this sucks.
..
rawr.

sighs.


and i'm double confused.
cause a few days back, weiliang messaged me and said that
he thinks i can do well in jc.
and i should think over my decision.

bah.
weiguang said likewise when i called him earlier.
howhow. :(

2nd november 2006.

最熟悉的陌生人

还记得吗 窗外那被月光染亮的海洋
你还记得吗 是爱让彼此把夜点亮
为何后来我们用沉默取代依赖
曾经朗朗星空 渐渐阴霾

心碎离开 转身回到最初荒凉里等待
为了寂寞 是否找个人填心中空白
我们变成了世上最熟悉的陌生人
今后各自曲折 各自悲哀

只怪我们爱得那么汹涌
爱得那么深
于是梦醒了 搁浅了 沉默了 挥手了
却回不了神
如果当初在交会时能忍住了 激动的灵魂
也许今夜我不会让自己在思念里沉沦


the above, is the current song that i've been singing day in day out.
(: why?
cause hiro said i sang well that day. =x
so well that it was amazing.
lols. at least that was how i chose to interpret his words. xD

hm.
tomorrow having a level chinese paper.
still thinking if i should study for it. =/
abit .. can't be bothered to. >.<
don't even feel like going for it. x_x
but since i still have things on after the paper tomorrow,
i decided to go.
blehh.



dear grace.
have a safe journey there and back. (:
i'll miss you.
so i'll probably meet you on tuesday?
if i don't have to meet my project work members for oral presentation.
hahas. cause my presentation is on wednesday.
yepp.
takecares okays? (:
love. -huggs.


一路上寻找我遗失的美好。

1st november 2006.

brand new month huh.

anyway.
had school.
nothing much.
the rehearsal went smoothly.

was raining after school.
got totally drenched. x_x
nice siyang said hi/bye while i was crossing the bridge.
met jack at tampines.
gave him quite a harsh lecture on gp/english.
sorry eh. :(
but when it comes to work,
i'm rather particular de. >.<
sorry!

最美的爱情回忆里待续。
nice right. (:


oh yah.
anyway.
josephine passed by my class today.
then she talked to me.
so nice. (:

and i wanna thank weejie. (:
he's been helping me print quite a bit of my project stuff.
thankews! ((:

bleh.
don't know what to blog le.


i'm sorry mfl.

all my life, i've been searching for you
and i wonder if you've found me too

lynette. lyn. thirtysevenn.
28th january 1989.
temasekpoly. tpsu. bsc.
singing. dancing.
brokenlyn37@hotmail.com

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anything cute at all (:
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apple
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